Dwell in Possibility

Uh, hi? It has been an age and a half since I migrated over here (so long ago that I can't even remember when that whole LJ drama happened) and I've been largely inactive. But I'm dusting this off as it seems like people might be coming back here? Or maybe I'm making the whole thing up.

These days I'm mostly on twitter so I'll let my bio speak for me first:
queer, proud, wife, nurturer of young souls, advocate | she/her | currently obsessed with cql/mdzs, lwj’s micro smile & wwx’s...everything
I'm inspiredlife01 over there.

Other stuff that may be of interest to someone
♥ Fandom! I started my LJ at the height of the HP fandom and immersed myself in it completely. For a long time HP was my only fandom but over the past years, other fandomy things I've enjoyed are P!atD, Dr. Who, Torchwood, Merlin and Teen Wolf. However, as stated, I am currently OBSESSED with cql/mdzs. My role in fandom is that of a voracious reader, enthusiastic squee-er and occasional reccer. I greatly enjoy beta reading but don't write fic myself. I wish I could create art but alas, i cannot.

♥ I'm a proud Bostonian and, despite having lived in several glorious places, Boston is my home (go you if you got that reference!). That being said, I now live in Prague and I don't foresee leaving Europe any time soon.

♥ I like, no, I love lists. Especially numbered ones. However, it is important to note that I do not like odd numbers, except the number 5.

♥ I overuse (abuse?) the words however and erm, ellipses and the winky smile emoticon. Apologies in advance.

♥ This journal has no friending policy...friend or de-friend at will! I'm a fairly private person but I do like making new friends. So if you've wandered over here, please tell me how you found me. If I've friended you, it's likely because I like your writing. I'm a bit cautious about friending back automatically but I do look forward to getting to know you. If you decide this place isn’t for you, that’s alright. I’ll be sorry to see you go but there won’t be any hard feelings or drama.

♥ I like being comfortable in my space and knowing that people are here because they enjoy my company. I like honest yet polite communication and appreciate healthy, respectful debate. We might not always agree but my journal is a safe space where everyone is welcome to express their opinions and share their thoughts.

And that’s all she wrote! That wasn’t too bad, was it?

So, um, hi!! Yeah, it's been 4 months since I posted. Oops?

I'm so insanely busy with work this year. I can't really even pinpoint why. Not much has changed in terms of structure, scheduling, etc as compared to last year but this year is hugely stressful. I average 60 hours a week and when I'm home, I'm just exhausted. I hate it because I miss LJ a lot and I feel so disconnected from many of you here. I don't even know who's still around these days. But, anyway, I didn't come here to whine.

Rather, I wanted to share some awesome news. girl_in_prague and I are engaged! This is likely old news for most of you as it's already been announced on twitter and facebook but we're still deliriously happy.

It's been a difficult journey as we dealt with the legalities of it all. For quite a while, we were advised not to get married in the States as it could cause future immigration issues for us. But, as we enter an age where DOMA might actually be repealed, our family lawyer's advice has changed. It is an amazing feeling, especially right now. I live in hope that the Supreme Court will make the right decision.

As for us, words can't even begin to express how happy and excited we are. Our wedding will be this July in Boston. Yay!! So far location and general reception plans have been set. Seems to me that the biggest issue will be the dresses.  :)

Misha made this icon for us years and years ago, when we were just starting to date and figure ourselves out. I never even imagined that this would be our future but the icon is still pretty apt. Thank you so much to those of you who have been with us through the long haul and years of long-distance pining. Thank you to newer friends who don't have the slightest clue what we've been through.  And, thank you, from the bottom of our hearts, to those of you who have supported and fought for our right to marry.  I truly believe that full equality is getting closer and closer, friends and all our efforts make a difference. ♥

{Take the 100 Things challenge!}

Totally jumping on the bandwagon! :)

Those of you who have been around for a while might recall that I used to do lots of good things lists. I'm a big believer in the fact that there's always good out in our world, even when it seems the most dark. My lists were a way to cheer me, to help me remain calm and positive in the face of trials and brought me much joy. So, this project will be something like that. 100 things that I think are pretty awesome. Thoughts/concepts, products, books, music...whatever comes to mind as something awesome that I want to share. I'm really looking forward to it!

Yesterday I headed to the neighbourhood cinema to see the recording of the NY Philharmonic's staged production of Company. There are a lot of musicals that I love but Company is up there at the top of the list. I would estimate that I've seen it at least forty times. If you add in the numbers of times I've worked the show, that number easily doubles.

This was one of the most amazing productions of Company I've ever seen. The cast was utterly brilliant. The supporting line-up was full of talent; Katie Finneran, Craig Bierko and Martha Plimpton were particularly engaging. I wasn't sure what I was expecting from Stephen Colbert but he gave an understated, spot-on performance and really pulled off one of my favourite songs, Sorry-Grateful. I have to admit, I was distracted a bit by Christina Hendrick's boobs but her take on April was great. 

But Neil Patrick Harris as Bobby? Oh, he blew me away completely and made me fall in love with him a little bit. Also Patti LuPone's Ladies Who Lunch left me in tears. So very different from Elaine Stritch's now famous rendition but just as compelling. After that song, I pretty much cried through the rest of the production and then left the theatre honest to god shaking. Company tends to touch me deeply; there's a lot in the show that resonates with me. But this was...indescribable. When I left the cinema I texted Mish "oh. my. fucking. god." That's still sums it up perfectly, imo. 

I seriously considered going to NY to see the production live but the expense plus time constraints made it near impossible. My wallet thanks me but fuck, I wish I could have seen this stunning performance in person. It's going to stay with me for a long time.  

Basically...
Today's song of the day is Marry Me a Little from Company. It's Rupert Young's rendition from the 2011 production at the Southwark Playhouse. Another great production with an excellent take on Bobby by Rupert. 

In other news, today is also an awesome day because it's Ms. kaalee's birthday! Happy, happy dear heart. I hope that you have an absolutely fantastic day and that the year ahead is full of fabulous things! <3

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Other stuffs:
Please know that every day is de-friending amnesty here. If you decide this place isn’t for you, that’s alright. I’ll be sorry to see you go but there won’t be any hard feelings or drama. In addition, I occasionally make flist cuts of my own. Mostly people from former fandoms I don’t talk to anymore. I might have made cuts in error (click-happy, wot?) so feel free to PM if you think there’s been a mistake.

I like being comfortable in my space and knowing that people are here because they enjoy my company. I like honest yet polite communication and appreciate healthy, respectful debate. We might not always agree but my journal is a safe space where everyone is welcome to express their opinions and share their thoughts.

And that’s all she wrote! That wasn’t too bad, was it?

eta. why can't you edit polls? I thought of another game! Dropwords. And, I really do know how to spell David's name. 

Okay, that's enough of being whiny. In honour of national poetry month...

The Thing Is
by Ellen Bass

to love life, to love it even
when you have no stomach for it
and everything you've held dear
crumbles like burnt paper in your hands,
your throat filled with the silt of it.
When grief sits with you, its tropical heat
thickening the air, heavy as water
more fit for gills than lungs;
when grief weights you like your own flesh
only more of it, an obesity of grief,
you think, How can a body withstand this?
Then you hold life like a face
between your palms, a plain face,
no charming smile, no violet eyes,
and you say, yes, I will take you
I will love you, again.

I had all these noble intentions to not post again until I've caught up on emails and messages but...you guys, my boyfriend is so fucking gorgeous! Seriously, I can't not share this snap. Look at his hair. *whimpers* My hair kink is alive and well; Mish and Mr. Morgan see to that. And the scruff.  And his wrist. *whimpers some more*


More pics over at gealach_ros' post. Okay, playground time is almost over so I must return to my classroom. I have a dentist appointment at 2pm and I'm hoping to not go back to work after so perhaps today will be my catch up day!  *smoooches the flist*

eta: my plushie and i survived the dentist (just barely!) but i'm still at work. *cries*

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